i have done it again! loved another & lost two friends,
i search in
bathroom mirrors only to see a sole
Yellow thing staring back at me
& hide when whitening sun arrives in bed
i think they are lost forever this
is all my fault i am so sorry that
i let someone in let myself feel
sun on my skin bring water to
my barren lips did i ever tell you
that i am sorry for
how i have done it again! lost ourselves over & over & over again,
i pierce wanted posters into
Yellow skin & still cannot find suspects for robberies of
where you went, why you’ve left
i think they are apart forever this
is all my fault i am so sorry that
i let them crack open your chest let myself resent
the dagger you left buried in
my bloodied breasts did i ever tell you
that i miss you for
why i have done it again! misplaced myself & prayed for repentance,
i kneel down to a god that may exist
& implore for all my love to be absolved
from my Yellowing spirit
i think we are gone forever this
is all my fault i am so sorry that
i let myself lose you like i’m losing
my hair like i’m losing all
my religion did i ever tell you
that i grieve you but
oh, i have done it again!
how i loved us, Yellow girls
with all eighteen of my breaths
& still lost you two at winter’s dying request
Cover Photo Source: Ines Norman